Difficult Cleansing or "Not so Wow" Experiences

[Michael S]

Dear All
Great to see this topic. I'll add another difficult cleansing story to this thread. Last December, in the heat of an Australian Summer I spent a couple bedridden weeks with quite a debilitating pneumonia. I'd never had it before nor any other lung or chest conditions.

In Western medicine it was seen as a bacterial infection that can be very dangerous. In Chinese medicine it is associated with grief and sadness. And so it was.

The 12 days that I was bedridden was painful and obviously exhausting but it was also an exhilarating magic carpet ride. There was not only much personal grief to let go of, but surprisingly much ancestral sadness too. All the while I coughed so much that I was unable to sleep much over that time.

I was happy to let the disease take its course with hospital an option to be avoided unless I was no longer able to manage. I was so affected by the illness Chi Kung exercises like Separating Water were too direct and powerful on my lungs, so I lifted the sky in bed instead.

As a direct result of this bout of illness, I have found a new peace, through subtle changes in direction for my work, my relations with others and forgiveness of self.

I don't recommend pneumonia to others, but found it to be an incredibly rewarding cleansing experience.
Wishing you all good health

Michael

All I got from my pneumonia was a taste for apple cider vinegar .

I'll be checking back on this thread. Inspirational stories and applicable philosophy are two of my favorite things about this forum

[Guest]

Hello All,

Thank you all for sharing your stories and advice. This is a very good thread.

Since I'm back from Summercamp, I am also going through cleansing right now. I'm feeling tired all of the sudden during the day, but when I go to bed I can't go to sleep. I have this weird feeling in my lower leg, it is a very uncomfortable feeling from the upper of my foot to the lower leg, and it creeps up only when I'm about to go to sleep. Very annoying.

I also feel very good the one day, making plans, seeying everything very bright, and the next day I feel angry about the slighest things. My black face comes back out of nowhere.
There is this girl I can't get over. The one day I accept the reality and feel free from her, the other day I'm back where I started. I feel I'm very unstable the last days. Very strong ups and downs.

I get annoyed very easy also lately. I realize it is all cleansing, but I become angry because of it anyway... I have all these opportunities and amazing blessings, and then I act like this.

I feel very dissapointed in myself right now. In alot of things..

But I feel I need a slap in the face at times, and it feels very good writing this down and sharing it. Thx to everyone who contributed, this really helps.

[Daniel]

Thank you all for these wonderful posts.

It´s true that there´s suffering and we pass through powerful cleansing stages sometimes....but the best thing is that we still carry on no matter what...and things will get better with time.


In my experience, there´s no other choice but accept the down times, but at the same time planting good seeds for the future.

Best regards,

[Neil Kelson]

dear Hoorenz, Be brave and press on, and you will be rewarded for your persistence. Best wishes, Neil.

[Vero]

Dear all, I am having some days of mental chaos, and Hoorenz I understand your feeling of being disappointed of yourself, reading you post was like reading my own words, some days I feel like, if life is some kind of test, then I am failing... but this gave me an opportunity to analyze myself my acts and feelings, it is an opportunity to change, everyday, to be a better human being that is what I am seeking, to be coherent with my heart. I really try to do my best, some days I just can not because I get overwhelmed with a negative mind, charged with anger and fear. That pain I had on my kidneys, is still there and it plays with me, some days it is located in my back, like a muscular pain, and other days like cystitis, and some other days it moves to the biliary vesicle and it hurts, and I just want to cry because I feel so frustrated because every single day I have a pain or an annoyance, if I wake up some day and I think “oh I think I feel good today, I am not feeling any pain“, and then BANG some pain arises like a bad joke. I know that I have to let go and do not even ask myself about pains, that shows that my mind is not strong enough, I should accept pain and mental chaos like a part of me when I feel it... Some days at night without blaming myself while analyzing my day I see what I want to change and what I do not want any more so clear, but when the time comes and I feel pressed, I am not able to act with my heart, I just act like a scared animal without being heart-coherent.
I have so much fear and anger and now I can see how this is affecting all aspects on my life an relationships with people and with myself.

All the best,

Vero