imbalance of yin? unhealthy heart chakra?

[sevenhills]

Hi, I'm doing some research into energy.
I'm 23 and Ive been aware of various techniques for a while. I was introduced to the concept of chakra at about 13 I guess. It's a concept I've tested and tried to feel if it has any material proof. Over the years I've practised shifting chi. Who knows if I was successfull.
Either way at the age of about 14 one night I had a sudden realisation about death. I was lying there thinking and suddenly I understood the whole concept of my life ending. Most nights this realisation comes back and I have to fight to mentally come to terms with it. Most nights (and it only happens between 9-11pm) it creeps into my thoughts despite no provoking, it makes me experience fear on an overwhelming level and my breathing increases, my spine runs cold, and I feel thrown into darkness with no where to turn. More recently I reached a point where I became increasingly calm and confident but still frightened. I believe the fear got so strong for so long my fight or flight response was triggered. I still have this fear response most nights and I was wondering is it possible I have shifted yin chi or something to this effect. I would go to the doctor but it would seem if it were chemical it would be permanently happening, I am generally a very strong minded and happy person.
Either way, I'm trying to find a way to overcome it.
In my research I came across a video of a guy called John Chang. He seems to heal with chi, and it looks like you can see it effecting things and people (people not inclined to fake it). But he, apparently with his Mo pai system, is gone now, so I'm trying to find out if theres any way to sort myself out.
If you can pass me and this message on to anyone who might know what to do, it would be much appreciated.

[AlexBaranosky]

Hello SevenHills,

It is possible your experiments with chi and chakras has disturbed your energy flow in your body and heart/mind. You may not believe this, but it sounds likely. If it was not from the chi experimenting you have done, then it could just be from life in general. If you were doing things with your heart energy that could easily explain it.

If I was you, knowing what I know now, I would go learn from one of the large amount of Wahnam instructors in your area (if I know where Devon is...)

Then after a while of practicing with them, I would fly to see Sifu in Malaysia. letting him know what my problem had been.

I honestly think that your problem will be handled well with our chi-kung. Our chi-kung cleanses the spirit very effectively.

All the Best,
Alex

[Maxime]

Dear SevenHills,

My opinion: you have practised incorrectly, and your deviation is quite severe. You should stop immediatly all energy and/or meditation for the time being.

Internal arts are to be learned directly from a master or at least a competent instructor. Otherwise, deviations might occur.

But you are lucky: your mind and body are warning you, that if you do not take heed, the deviation might become more serious.

You could try and see a good (key word) traditionnal Chinese medicine doctor, who could help you to rebalance your energy (acupuncture, herbs).

Another very good option -probably the best in your case- is to seek a good chi kung healer. Please go to shaolin.org and check the list of our available healers close to your area.

All chi kung healers certified by Grandmaster Wong Kiew Kit are very capable to help you to restore your imbalance.

Good luck,

Maxime

[barrys]

Sevenhills,

You are lucky.

Sifu Wong Kiew Kit's Chief Instructor in the UK lives in Devon. His name is Sifu Marcus Santer and he is also a Chi Kung Healer.

You could contact him via the forum to see if he would accept you as a student. His contact details are here. http://www.wongkiewkit.com/forum/member.php?u=10

With metta,

Barry

[parrapiti]

This is an inspirational thread to remind us how how our Mind/Heart alert us about risks and how our intuition shows us the best ways to overcome them. It is then up to our clear intention to change paths through action and discipline.

Thank you all,

Piti

[Dorit]

Hello sevenhills,

to me you spiritually opened up too quickly, in a phase of your life where you should concentrate growing adult and live. This happens if one develops his chakras too early. Chakras need time to develop; each about 7 years. This means, your mind has to develop too, otherwise you get panics because you see and feel things you are not mature enough to really understand.

The thing you should do now:
1. go to a Qi Gong master and -healer.
2. LIVE. Sports like running, biking, swimming - going out with friends - having fun. Go out into the nature, as often you have time for it.
3. Develop your earthly life: your family, your education and job.
4. Do eat good earthly natural food, also meat.

I had a very good friend who made Kundalini Yoga as a young man of 17. One day he got terrible visions ... he only came down doing what I told above. Today he is a very successful artist - and he is able to combine earthly and spiritual life.

My best,
confermezza

[sevenhills]

well Confermazza, as a vegetarian (technically), I can't eat meat (due to discontentment with idustrialised farming practices). On all the rest however I'm fairly active in doing. I Live in Torbay which has amazing cliffs, I do rock climbing.
As for the rest of the advice, I'll get in contact with the guy.
What an active community, thank you all for your speedy and proactive response.

[Dorit]

OK with meat, I understand that - but there is also biological food which I would prefer anyway. And ovo-lacto, that means, no products of dead animals.

What I would consider too:
You are frightened about end of life. I understand this very well because I know these feelings. Try to find out WHY you have them. In your childhood: did anyone you love die? did your mother almost die at your birth? did anyone have a severe illness being afraid to die? (Children are very empathic, and take over feelings of those they love.) As a child, were you ever afraid to loose your parents and be alone? did you ever think of an accident, a sudden death, or did you see such accident with dead people in the streets?
Just reflect, and write down all your feelings, but do not interpret them. Only recall them. When you get a panic or frightening feeling: just stop and let go, and reflect: WHY? which thoughts, which events belong to this feeling? Ask yourself. Be attentive, and record any feeling, any image, any event, any smell, any words coming up. Write them down, then put away your notes for a while. It is not necessary to stay involved too much. After an amount of time you may look through them, and certainly you will find out that things have changed.
This is nothing "magical": but this helps you to get access to your subconscious mind. And you get a distance to these panic attac when stepping out of it and trying to analyze it. You are no longer powerless to your overwhelming frightening.

All the best,
confermezza

[parrapiti]

Did you get in contact with Marcus, Barry, Fleur or any of the other Chi Kung Healers in your area?

Piti

[AlexBaranosky]

That's just what I was think Piti

Sevenhills,

You might just find that this "problem" was the best thing that ever happened to you.

[sevenhills]

I have sent an email through this site and directly from his site to Harry, who apparently lives in Dawlish, which is 10 miles north of where I live.
I'm waiting on a response.
I find many of the concepts fascinating and it would be nice to learn more. There's so much of the Asian spiritual theories that correlate in specific areas. It would be nice to do a Joseph Campbell and discover the underlying similarities and differences of the paths.

For example all paths seem to agree on there being channels and centres. Though they seem to differ slightly in where they are and what they do. Also they differ in energy concept such as the dualistic Positive and Negative, or energy relating to elements, places or emotions.

Part of my disbelief in the near eastern/asia minor religions is the fact that every character from Muhammed to Moses had their story exactly retold in similar preceding religions. Jesus and Mithras for example.

[Andrew]

I have sent an email through this site and directly from his site to Harry, who apparently lives in Dawlish, which is 10 miles north of where I live.
I'm waiting on a response.

Who's Harry?

[sevenhills]

.... .... .... .... lol, who honestly knows..... Marcus, is who I meant. good to see I thoughroughly double check my posts before clicking sumbit.

[AlexBaranosky]

Sevenhills,

There is intellectualizing, and then there is experiencing chi for yourself.

[sevenhills]

Well, that would be good. I do believe there are fundamental truths in life, and those I cant discover in myself, by myself, it would be a life's goal to strive to find the rest out. There doesn't appear to be much more I can do on my own. It's like looking at the big picture with a magnifying glass.