I am in the middle of a BIG cleansing, it feels like i will explode inside. So much anxiety. My life is totally upside down. And i thought i slept bad before, food is hard to digest and so on.
Smiling from the heart, helps me for the moment, but its hard to get that heart smiling.
This inside me is SOO powerful. It holds tremendous amount of energy.
It feels like many many years of denying myself is comming back right in my face.
Maybe i should slow down my practise so i can live a normal life at the same time. But at the same time i feel i want to continue practising to get this out of the system.
For some odd reason do i feel that i have been waiting for many years to actually feel this, it has slowly been comming up to the surface the last 2 months.
But when i feel this pain it makes me wanna hide myself again, stop taking responsibility for my life.
Any help is very much appreciated.
Sincerely,
Niklas
Smiling from the heart, helps me for the moment, but its hard to get that heart smiling.
This inside me is SOO powerful. It holds tremendous amount of energy.
It feels like many many years of denying myself is comming back right in my face.
Maybe i should slow down my practise so i can live a normal life at the same time. But at the same time i feel i want to continue practising to get this out of the system.
For some odd reason do i feel that i have been waiting for many years to actually feel this, it has slowly been comming up to the surface the last 2 months.
But when i feel this pain it makes me wanna hide myself again, stop taking responsibility for my life.
Any help is very much appreciated.
Sincerely,
Niklas
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