I thought i had got rid of my depression i had in my late teens and early twenties.
But realise now that i just kept it hidden by applying alot of stress in my body over the years. I never really allowed myself to feel anything really. My life was an endless activity. And if i was physically still, i changed into thinking ALOT just to keep me busy and keep the feelings away.
It has been like this for over 10 years so basically this way of living is very deep manifested inside me.
Luckily my Chi Kung training is slowly breaking into theese hidden quarters and stiring things up
When i am having theese feelings inside me my whole body screams to me to do something, to get rid of them.
This time i want to do it the "right" way, and stop hiding them inside me.
I am at work at the moment and it is REALLY hard to focus on my job while having this kind of feelings.
Any help how to handle this situation is greatly appreciated.
/Niklas
But realise now that i just kept it hidden by applying alot of stress in my body over the years. I never really allowed myself to feel anything really. My life was an endless activity. And if i was physically still, i changed into thinking ALOT just to keep me busy and keep the feelings away.
It has been like this for over 10 years so basically this way of living is very deep manifested inside me.
Luckily my Chi Kung training is slowly breaking into theese hidden quarters and stiring things up
When i am having theese feelings inside me my whole body screams to me to do something, to get rid of them.
This time i want to do it the "right" way, and stop hiding them inside me.
I am at work at the moment and it is REALLY hard to focus on my job while having this kind of feelings.
Any help how to handle this situation is greatly appreciated.
/Niklas
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