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  • Bernhard
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    Hello everyone!

    One year has passed. What has changed? What did I learn?
    I had been in hospital again but this time due to rehab for 8 weeks. Unfortunately it helped me less than expected. The diagnosis has changed. Now it is depression with psychotic symptoms. That's what a lot of tests resulted, but some doctors think it could be an early form of schizophrenia. That was quite a shock to hear. At first I was happy because I 'only' had depression but telling me it could be schizophrenia is like telling me I would be crazy the rest of my life.

    The most important change happend in the last few weeks. I started to enjoy my practice. Somehow I couldn't do it before. Since then the practice feels good all the time and I make progress nearly every time, sometimes a lot sometimes less. There has been no plateau since and I am more happy after the practice. I even can enjoy things in every day life.

    There are still a lot of things i want to attain or get rid of. For example I want to reach more motivation. I want to get rid of the feeling that a lot of things are too laborious. I want to live a happy and healthy life. And now I think it is possible because I enjoy the chi flow. Enjoying is a great skill. Now I can have positive thoughts without having more thoughts, or thoughts about thoughts. I can be relaxed in a basic and lucky way. Being able to enjoy things and having the ability to deepen that skill is a blessing.

    Hao Yun Qi everyone!
    Bernhard

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  • Bernhard
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    Hello everyone!
    In the last few days i had deja vus.
    I again made a list of what I want to get rid of.The problem is that there is something I don't want to face. But I think I have to if i want to get well.
    I again want to start practising Hula Hoop but not only for a month like last year. I want to practice Hula Hoop until I have overcome doubt and fear and gained determination and confidence.

    By the way I stopped practising the eight Shaolin eye exercises a few month ago. I want to practice Punching with Angry Eyes after I have reached my goals.

    good energy flow to everyone :-)

    Bernhard

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  • Bernhard
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    Dear Nessa Sipak
    Thank you very much. :-)

    all the best
    Bernhard

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  • Nessa
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    Dear Bernhard,

    For me gratitude has been a great way of learning to accept things (even the hard ones).
    Every morning before practice I take a moment to feel how wonderful life is and feel grateful.
    Every night before going to sleep I thank God for the rewarding day I have had and think of one or two (or more) things I’ve been blessed with that day.

    I do this every day and gratitude has become a habit. I find it easier to be grateful for all things, and accept them, even those things that aren’t so easy to handle.

    It’s good to find your own way of accepting things. The first step is to want to do so. Then you can try our what works for you.
    Like in Shaolin practice, you need to put in the effort and time to see results.

    Best wishes,

    Nessa

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  • Bernhard
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    Hello everyone :-)

    Does anyone know how I can learn to accept things? What can I practice to attain the skill of acceptance? Is there some kind of prayer or mantra I can do?

    o\
    Bernhard

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  • Bernhard
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    Dear Shaolin Wahnam Family

    I have had a great chi kung practice today. During standing meditation I was simply happy. After that I felt blessed but at the same time I thought that I would not deserve it. Somehow I felt confused and tested. As far as I can remember it correctly I had a similar feeling after my first courses with Sigung and my Sifu said it is part of the old Bernhard. Today I have had the experience that all my questions and knowledge about chi kung are nothing compared to the experience I got.

    Since practising Carrying the Moon daily and on a suitable level my results are boosted. In the past I changed the chi kung pattern regularly. My experience now is that it is better to stick with one exercise for a period of time. And it is better to undertrain than to overtrain.

    I think my perseverance is being tested. And as Nessa Sipak said I have to practice till I am healthy.
    If I want to be healthy I have to change and I think this was the hardest part so far. I wanted to change without change. But now it is time for change.

    All the best to everyone. o\
    Bernhard
    Last edited by Bernhard; 21 February 2018, 08:50 PM.

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  • Bernhard
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    Love

    A few days ago my mum said to my that in the past I always felt cold in the toes during winter. At first I could not even remember it. I think Chi Kung helped me so far with more things than I can remember. :-)

    Today I saw a video which is in both english and german. It is about love and dependency. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uea...&feature=share After watching it I now want to love more in everyday life.

    so with love
    Bernhard

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  • Bernhard
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    Today morning I've had an insight. I am ok the way I am. An insight that I think would not be possible without the Shaolin Wahnam Family. Thank you everyone. :-)
    In the past I thought every insight should be huge and life-changing, but it isn't. On the long term this one is life-changing but on the short term there are lots of other factors shaping reality. It's a small, a big and an important step simultaneously. I think insights still have to grow. They don't come with perfect enlightment.

    Greetings o\
    Bernhard

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  • Bernhard
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    Dear Nessa Sipak (It is still unusual to me addressing an elder shaolin aunt as Sipak.)

    Thank you very much for your advice. It is more worth than gold. So far I have read your post a few times and I have taken notes.

    Chi Kung is my main method of healing. Not only because I know Chi Kung, have a Sifu who helps me as best as he can and having been to regional courses of Sigung, but because I do not know something better. I do take medication but it just helps me to treat the symptoms. Next week I have an appointment with a psychotherapist. I looked for the best available. I am not sure how she can help me to treat the cause.

    May you be blessed Nessa. Your post should be posted at shaolin.org. It is really helpful and it is heart-touching to me.

    With love o\

    Bernhard

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  • Nessa
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    Dear Bernhard,

    I am sure your Sifu has already given you good advice how to practice to overcome your health problems and reach your goals.

    Here are a few things I’ve found useful when using chi kung in overcoming anxiety disorders or depression.

    1. Realize you are already healthy.

    When you understand that health is a natural state for you, it becomes easier to use chi kung to get rid and let go of what ever rubbish or blockages are causing your health problems.
    It really doesn’t matter what the problems are, chi flow will overcome and clear them.

    This is an important point: you don’t have to intellectualise on your problems or analyse them. If your practice correctly and consistently, you will overcome your problems.

    This is also where western medicine and chi kung differ greatly in their approach to curing mental illness. While western medicine uses therapy and drugs as main methods to cure mental illness symptoms, chi kung works on a deeper and more profound level of curing the root problems that cause the symptoms in the first place.

    So, by changing negative thought patterns to positive thought patterns, you are treating the symptoms. Also, focusing on every thought that arises actually creates more thoughts and confusion.
    From the chi kung perspective, you don’t need to change your thoughts, or intellectualise about them. You can just let them be and pass by. When you practice daily the basic chi kung exercise, you practice relaxing, keeping your mind free of thoughts (whether they are good or bad) and enjoy your chi flow.


    2. The Three Golden Rules


    Can you be anxious or depressed when you don’t worry, don’t intellectualise and enjoy whatever it is you are doing? No, you can’t. It’s the perfect antidote to anxiety, excessive negative thoughts or fears.

    When you practice the Three Golden rules everyday, it becomes easier and easier to apply them to whatever you are doing.

    If your used to worrying or intellectualising it may take some time to learn not to do so, but it will reward you for life.


    3. Practical ways to use the chi kung skill with anxiety symptoms

    Instead of using drugs to deal with panic attacks or anxiety, it is relative easy to deal with them using chi kung skills. It may take some time to practice, but it is well worth the effort, as you learn how to deal with panic attacks or anxiety and fear yourself.

    If a strong fear or panic attack arises, you breath out gently three times, go into a gentle chi flow and say to yourself ‘I am fine and safe’. And let the panic attack pass.
    So simple, yet so effective!


    4. Following your progress and perseverance

    The western mindset is often: “How to get rid of this as soon as possible?”
    In chi kung practice, you need to put in the effort yourself and keep on practicing until you have overcome your health problems. This is also a blessing in disguise: you learn to take responsibility of yourself and of your well being.

    Anxiety and fears are often build on misconceptions: I can’t do this, What if…happens, ..
    When you use your chi kung skills to overcome your fears and anxiety, you see fear as what it is: only fear, not reality. Every person feels fear. When the fear starts to affect your behaviour or decisions, then it becomes a trouble maker.

    So, you have to accept that using chi kung as your main method of healing will take some time. But as long as you are progressing and the direction is good, you just keep going.
    It is helpful to understand that all healing has it’s ups and downs. Very rarely someone heals straight away. If you accept that your chi kung practice will be sometimes easy and sometimes not, it helps you to get over the little bumps on the way.



    So, just keep on practicing! I am sure you will overcome your health problems.


    Best wishes,


    Nessa

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  • Bernhard
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    Dear Wahnam Family


    A lot of things have happened.
    I redefined my aims. I want to be confident and have a positive perception. I want to get rid of fear and obsessive thoughts. I made two plans. Here is the one about letting go of fear.

    Aim and objective
    Get rid of fear
    Get rid of obsessive thoughts
    Get rid of inappropriate sexual thoughts
    Get rid of chronic pain

    Method
    Chi Flow and kidney exercise

    Till when
    31.12.2018

    How often practice
    daily

    Assess progress
    01.04.2018
    01.07.2018
    01.10.2018
    31.12.2018

    Measurability
    Am I confident?
    Are fear and obsessive thoughts gone?
    Is the chronic pain gone?
    Am I more self-confident and braver?
    Do I have normal sexual thoughts?
    Can I better control the sexual urge?

    Why?
    I want to be healthy.
    I want to be free of fear, pain and obsessive thoughts.
    I want to be confident.
    I want to have normal sexual thoughts.

    Now I have to practice, practice, practice. As you all know this is very important.

    Here are a few links that helped me:
    https://www.wongkiewkit.com/forum/sh...olving-Process
    https://www.wongkiewkit.com/forum/sh...amp-Objectives
    https://shaolin.org/general/perception.html

    with kind regards o\
    Bernhard

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  • Bernhard
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    Electricity and Chi Flow

    Hello everyone :-)


    First thank you Fräänz for mentioning Sitaigungs wisdom.


    Second as I mentioned in an earlier post I have had a few insights. One insight is about similarities between Chi Flow and electricity.


    As I know focus more on flow it dawned on me that electricity has to aspects too. In our training we have force and flow. Electricity has electrical current and electrical voltage. Current and voltage multiplied is electrical power and electrical power is energy per time. I think electrical power can be compared with the intensity of the chi flow. And of course time is a very important factor in our training. For example 10 minutes may not be overtraining but 15 minutes may be, both with the same intensity. There are different kinds of electricity as there are different kinds of exercise with which someone can generate a chi flow. Intensity or how much benefit there is is very important as it is important how much electrical power your electric device gets. Too much electrical power may destroy it. Both chi flow and electricity need a sweet spot.



    With love
    o\
    Bernhard

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  • Fräänz
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    "If you can walk one mile, you can walk a hundred miles." Sitaigung Ho
    You can do it!

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  • Bernhard
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    As I am practicing the eight Shaolin eye exercise for about a week now I thought I could grasp the opportunity to practice them for a year too. I also had the experience that physical labor like carrying packages was much easier. :-)
    With love o\
    Bernhard

    PS: I have had a few insights and my next post will be about that.

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  • Bernhard
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    Originally posted by Alex McLeod View Post
    Consistency is more the key on this type of work than pretty much anything else. I just wanted to give you another very useful tool for your toolbox.
    Yes it is. I honestly have to work that I have consistently good thoughts. Thank you for mentioning that and for the tool :-)

    Originally posted by Andrew R View Post
    Hi Bernhard,

    Sounds like you're moving in a good direction. I'll just mention what I've experienced to be important points:

    - Be patient with yourself and with the process. Some imbalances can be rectified quickly, others are more delicate and can take some time.

    - Asking Guan Yin and/or God for assistance in your process is excellent; accept the help in whatever form it comes, as it may surprise you.



    - Following the most basic instructions related to the Shaolin Arts is important at every level of our practice. If your chi kung always follows the guidelines of "don't think of anything, smile from the heart and enjoy your practice," this will certainly be enough to reach your goal. By emptying our mind and smiling from the heart, we allow God/Buddha/Allah/Tao to do the best for us.

    Best Wishes!

    Andrew
    Thank you for mentioning the points Andrew Sipak. I surely have to become more patient. Since the day before yesterday a new tool is showing up. It is simple just 'I can ...'. For example I can be healthy. I can be patient. I can love. And it is very benefical. I think Guan Yin or some divine helpful and good being helped me to have that kind of good thoughts :-)

    with kind regards and I wish everyone merry xmas
    o\
    Bernhard

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